Anyway, the next morning I was awoke by a song we've song in church many times, and I love. The name is Lord have your way in me, just a simple, but beautiful chorus. In case you are not familiar with it, it goes:
This is my desire, to Honor You
Lord with all my heart I worship You
All I have within me I give You praise
All that I adore is in You
Lord I give You my heart, I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take, Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me
I lay there flat on my face (I sleep on my stomach) just prone before God, and there was worship. I was overwhelmed at the love I have for a God that has been so good to me throughout my life, and yet who I've failed miserably so many times. This song could have been my heart's song at that moment.
This season of my life has been very hard, yet full of joy. I'm so thankful to be having another child, but these last six weeks have just been a constant struggle to just make it through the day. Unfortunately, I have not been leaning on God to get me through, just on my own strength. I have made excuses not to read my Bible as I've just been soooooo tired, and sooooo sick, I just wanted to veg out. I've also skipped church (which I just never do) several times saying I just didn't want to move. What ridiculous and sad excuses as I have dove back into the scriptures the last few days and they have filled and energized me in a way nothing else can.
So, I am making this song my prayer, even as I type. Lord, have your way in me. I am so thankful for a God, that even though I so often botch it up, still will allow me to come before him in worship. What joy!