Friday, December 19, 2008

I'm hurting

So the last few days have been very painful for me. On Tuesday Anna was born and everything seemed perfectly normal, I got to spend all day with her, she was doing great breastfeeding, everyone visited and it was just great.

Wednesday afternoon came and they were talking about releasing us the next day as everything was so great. Suddenly I noticed she was breathing very heavily so I called the nurse and she took her to check her out. Before I knew what was happening they took her down to the NICU and hooked her up to everything. They thought she may have some fluid on her lungs or pneumonia or an infection so they ran all kinds of tests and put her on antibiotics "just in case". They were convinced she would be better by Friday. Well, guess what, Friday is here and there is no change. She is still breathing very heavily, her oxygen level keeps going up and down and she is just not well.

They think she probably has pneumonia, but aren't sure and will be doing another x-ray at 11. They have no idea when she can go home, probably not for at least another week, and she is hooked up to every tube and machine you can think of, besides a ventilator. That may be coming if she keeps breathing like this. She is just wearing her little body out.

I am so scared and troubled by all of this, my heart is breaking and I can't stop crying. They say it's not fatal and she is not terribly off, but they can't give me anything conclusive of what it could be or when she might get better. It's very frustrating and troubling all at the same time.

Please be in prayer for our family, that we will have peace in this situation, that God will work in mighty ways to protect and heal our little Anna and that God would ultimately be glorified in all we do and say here.

Thank you friends,


amy said...

oh sweet friend, i will be praying. I know you are scared and want little Anna with you. Im so glad you recognized her labored breathing. what a good momma you are.She will be okay. lets get her well and get her home so she wont have to come back..

Im sure they drew cultures.Let me know if anything shows up

Deedra said...

I am praying for your sweet beautiful Anna and for you and the rest of your family as well!

Laurel Wreath said...

I can totally understand your fear, I will be praying for you and for your sweet Anna. I will pray for the Drs to have wisdom also.

Hugs, hang in there Mom you had a BEAUTIFUL daughter.

Anonymous said...

Praying for your sweet baby girl. Came over from Deedra's blogg.

gail said...

I understand why you are hurting, Amy. I pray that our Father in heaven will send His Spirit to comfort all four of you; that His healing hand will be upon you and Anna; that you will allow Him to hold you tightly, not fighting against His comfort. Bless you, dear sister, gail

Elizabeth said...

Oh Amy! I am sorry you are going through this right now, but I will be praying for you, your family and especially Anna that she will be better and can come home with you very soon!

Christiana has been coughing and coughing to the point of having difficulty breathing. I took her to the Dr and they said that it wasn't anything yet but a cold dripping in the back of her throat, but it is scary nonetheless! She is 5 months and I still get nervous so I'm sure your feelings are tripled and quadrupled.

Thank our Heavenly Father that it doesn't appear to be very serious!!!

Sending you a BIG HUG :)

Amanda said...

praying, praying, praying. amy, may God hold you in His arms and bring you peace, keeping your mind focused on what is true and right and good and admirable. much, much love.


Aimie said...

Definitely, our family will pray for your beautiful angel. We will pray for your strength by her side as well. It is Christmas, the time of miracles and I pray that her health will be yours. God bless you all.

Amy Fichtner said...

Just wanted to let you know that, you are in my prayers!!!

WheresMyAngels said...

My prayers will be with you and your baby daughter. Prayers that she is soon better.

creative gal said...

I am praying for you and your family! God is walking with you during this time!!

Carrie said...

Oh Amy, I am so sorry that this is all going on! Of course I will pray for you and Anna, the rest of the family and the doctors and nurses. Focus on the good news, that it is not life threatening and that she WILL recover from this.
Hang in there. God is with you.

MInTheGap said...

Oh wow-- I hope that she's doing better and will be able to be home for Christmas. Things like this are never easy :(

Fortunately we know Someone who knows exactly what's going on!

Heather of the EO said...

I realize this isn't your newest post and that things have improved! Yay! But I wanted to say I'm sorry. I know how hard it is to see your baby ill and in the hospital. It does bring this whole faith thing to a whole new level.

I love the picture in your most recent post too. So sweet. Hang in there and get some rest, Mama!