Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Energize Me

Do you ever just have those days when you just feel worn down? You want nothing else on your plate, you want no more conversations, you think staring at a blank wall all day actually seems appealing.

Well today is one of those days for me. I just feel like I have nothing left to give. Pregnancy is probably part of it, and lack of really good sleep is a contributer, but I think the larger part is something much bigger: the peanut!

She's saying, "No pictures Mama!!"


She has just been such a firecracker lately. High energy, crabby, fit throwing, screaming MINE to anyone with eardrums, low patience levels, selfish...oh, how I could go on. She is just an absolute pill right now and I have to tell you, my own patience level has worn pretty thin in the last few weeks.

It's funny, when I was pregnant with the peanut my husband prayed for a strong willed child. His thought was once she becomes a Christian she will not be swayed by the ways of the world, but will be a leader. She will come out fighting for what she believes in and never back down. That is what we hope for.

Well, God does answer prayer, as we know. And he answered this one in a big way. She is certainly one of the strongest willed children I have ever known. She just has a philosophy on the way her world should be and darned if it doesn't go that way, she is going to let you know about it. Oh people, good times.

So, I am praying that God will give me strength and energy in the days to come. That I will not back down from parenting her in a Godly way and not just giving in to her because I'm tired. It is difficult, but I know that God has given me the tools to do just that, so I have to so her heart will be turned to Him.

Now, will someone please pass me a Redbull? :)

3 comments:

Cyndi said...

Sending love and prayer your way!

Petula said...

:-) I totally understand! My two middle children are 15 months apart! Whew, my son was such a handful when I was pregnant. Take care and try to get rest when you can.

AGSoccerMom said...

Peanut looks alittle like Michelle Tanner in FullHouse with those pig tails. She really is a cutie.